Depression is a *****. I need to make her my *****.

After I complained to my therapist (a lot) that I can't bring myself to care about difficult goals, even if I want to make all kinds of positive changes and really take care of myself, she pointed out that depression makes it difficult to think/care about the future. In retrospect... Yes? So obviously I need to work on not being so depressed if I want to make progress on something else. Boring.

Daily goals (tracker):

Take a ****ing shower.
Eat the ****ing plant.
Do some ****ing stretches.
If it takes less than 5 minutes, do the damn thing.

There are a million and one things I could work on, but these 4 seem like the most effective attacks against things that are holding me back. - Look. I'm currently making a list of extra credit things I can do to improve my well-being, but I really need to focus on them. I'm mad as hell that I'm at a point in my life where I need to make it my goal to shower every day, but that's life.

This post and my glorious return by the fact that I have therapy tomorrow, and for some reason my therapist doesn't approve of living in a cave of depression and keeps asking about when I last talked to my friends; it turns out, "uh-uh..." isn't the best answer. (Chagrined.)